“It’s strange how the human mind swings back and forth, from one extreme to another. Does truth lie at some point of the pendulum’s swing?” – “..Well, the pendulum swung today and I thought, instead of my own body, of Maurice’s. He didn’t tell me why he was in hospital those three days: ..That scar was part of his character.. ..Then I began to want my body that I hated, but only because it could love that scar.” – atomos.tumblr.com/ http://ift.tt/1MW8Gym

“an object … exists only insofar as it is lost. This loss of what the subject doesn’t have institutes the death drive, which produces enjoyment through the repetition of the initial loss. Subjects engage in acts of self-sacrifice and self-sabotage because the loss enacted reproduces the subject’s lost object and enables the subject to enjoy this object. Once it is obtained, the object ceases to be the object. As a result, the subject must continually repeat the sacrificial acts that produce the object, despite the damage that such acts do to the subject’s self-interest. From the perspective of the death drive, we turn to violence not in order to gain power but in order to produce loss, which is our only source of enjoyment. Without the lost object, lile becomes bereft of any satisfaction.”— Enjoying What We Do Not Have – TODD MCGOWAN